A short break

I am now taking a short break from all magical practice and study (unless group work requires a temporary re-integration), while I tend to some other pressing personal issues.

Also, it will be interesting to compare and contrast living a non-magical life, with living a magical life. Many of us are plagued by doubts about whether this "magick stuff" is all really worth it.

Many never dare to find out, we cling to magic like a religion, scared we may fall apart. Many have been "doing magic" so long, they forget what life was like before. It's the anology of an elderly person always "tut tutting" at a child, forgetting what it was like to be a child.

Some things to explore:
"Can I get a new job without doing magic"?
"Can I find a new lover without doing magic"?
"Can I resolve difficult situations without doing magic"?

I also hope that I will become a better grounded person and Occultist by so doing.

At the end of this short break, I'll present a report of my brief excursion back to "normality".





See you at the UNIX prompt $

Enochian Pronunciation Guide

For those who are interested in working with the Enochian system, but wondering just how to pronounce the language, here is one good guide to Enochian Pronunciation, there are probably many many others!

http://hermetic.com/browe-archive/prcallsc.htm

Chaos Illumination

"No man is born into the World a Master, and for that reason are we obliged to learn".
- The Sacred Magic of Abra-Melin The Mage, Book 1, Chapter 1.

As I successfully conclude a week long period of Chaos Monasticism, and reflect on some of my experiences so far, both in my magical career and life in general, I am often struck by how many people who call themselves "masters", "teachers", "leaders", "managers", "directors" and various other titles have learned very little about life, and also about themselves.

I would rather admit my mistakes and learn from them, ignorance is never bliss.

There are many old fools, and wise young sages.

As I start work on my second book, where I talk about the methods I used, and the results I had in gaining the Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel, the Goetia, The Enochian System and also my recent workings in Voodoo and associated traditions, I am tempted to say what Chaos Illumination is to me. To me it is learning how to be anything you like, the process of self discovery and self transformation, metamorphosis, but within reason.

There are some things, I wouldn't want to change, though it seems at first sight useful.

To give an example, recently I again grew very attached to someone who didn't grow quite as attached to me, in the same amount of time that I would have liked. Whether or not this changes, only time will tell, and if it doesn't I will simply move on as I always do. I thought about maybe doing a working of enchantment on myself, so I would be more "cold" and less feeling. Then I thought, no way! Passion, feelings, developing strong emotions for someone are what makes us human, without this we would just be simple animals, who would have sex with another animal one minute, then the next tear it apart. We do have many people like this in our society already, of course, many of them are safely behind bars.

Passion is good, love, hate, anger, sadness, joy these are all emotions and states without which, the world would be a very dull place.

Listen to any song you like, I bet you can tick off many of the above mentioned in the song, especially love!

The key issue is control, to learn to control, and to think before you act, or to find a way to usefully channel emotions.

There are times to control your anger, and there are times to let it out, to smash a few plates, instead of smashing a few skulls.

There are times to control your lust, and there are times to let it out, to have sex with a willing participant, instead of raping the innocent victim who doesn't wish your advances.

There are times to control your love, and there are times to let it out, to love those who love you, instead of wasting your love on those who wouldn't even give you a spare second of their time.





Love In Chaos
Frater Pan

Thanks!

Many thanks to all those who sent healing energy through the servitor.

Next week, I should return to work fully recovered.

May EELSTREN become a living entity.




To The Great Work!




Frater Pan
(Currently Monk Of Chaos)

The Healing Servitor - Revisited!

Ok, magicians, witches, and other magical folk!

I need your help!

I am currenly recovering from a nasty throat/chest infection which has been made slightly worse by an existing condition. I'm concerned my current employer will try and now get rid of me first chance they get - and also still need the healing touch.

My gift to you, the healing servitor EELSTREN, I could now do with it myself. Rather than simply activating it myself, it would be a cool experiment/project too, if you guys could also activate him? Would you do that?

It will be interesting to see what happens too (if risky, but magic is often risky).

Thanks and blessings in advance!